So, I got back from college about two weeks ago and I've been working on unpacking (I know, I know. Two weeks and I haven't unpacked yet? I'm a horrible person). Anyway, the reason why I haven't finished unpacking yet will be covered in this post. My problem is that I have to go through all my stuff that I left here; some of it necessary, like clothes, and some of it unnecessary, like junk, or, as I like to call it, memories. Now, all I really want to do is throw away all my old stuff without going through it or thinking about it. I have no desire to keep any of it. The only things I have that I really want to keep are my books, (of course!) music, and clothes. I don't want all the stuff that I will never, ever use again. I am having a very hard time actually working through this because I know that as soon as I get rid of everything (literally, everything) or at least as much as I possibly can my room will be empty. I don't want it to be empty, but I don't want all the crap I have. This is a very unfortunate predicament. I don't want most of the stuff I have, but it feels like such a waste to throw it all out. I don't plan on using it ever again, but most of it is stuff that I rarely used, and as such is in excellent condition. Basically, I have too many problems with guilt to just throw it all away without having any conscience problems. Also, I don't really want my room to be empty.
I think the biggest thing is that I've moved on. I don't want to get rid of all the memories, but I don't want to keep them, either. Everything has something tied to it. However, all I really need is to get rid of everything, and I probably will feel a lot better after I do. Anyway, I'm sitting on my bedroom floor since my bed is covered with clothes, and my foot seems to have fallen asleep, so I'm just going to wrap things up. When I next post my room should be completely clean and not-too-empty. You can only hope, right? =P
